letter to amma

Amma I love you,

I know you are watching me and protecting me every minute . while I miss your touch everyday but I know I am surrounded by your blessings .

I know it was difficult for you to leave us mid way but I am glad you made the right choice because we could not  see you suffering .

To be honest amma , it does not feel as if you are not here with us physically , we feel your presence every time we are home, we feel you are coming home back from work and will check on us as soon as you enter, I can feel your magic in every corner of the home.

I am part of you even before I knew my identity , so I know our bond is eternal. I know how you will react watching me from there doing all the things I do .

Watching us at this very moment , I can imagine how much you are missing Raaga and me.

I still don’t know if I have completely accepted your departure , or if I actually just did not digest the fact that you chose a new world too early .

Amma , I miss irritating you as soon as I come home , I miss you feeding me when I ignore to eat , I miss you sorting fights between me & Raaga , and I miss our family karaoke sessions because we don’t have a purpose and audience any more.

But ma I don’t want to miss you being here for me , because I know you are still there for me and that you will be there , right there when I need you  and I promise ma I will do you proud.

Amma , I’m sorry ma , even though I expressed my love for  you through tiny acts ,I  told you I love you very  occasionally, but you always knew I loved you , I still do and I will continue to .I know that you love us forever amma , but I just wish I had said it when you could reply .

I love you Amma

Amma , you are the most wonderful person I ever witnessed  , You understood me so well ; fighting cancer is not easy and I still wonder how you managed the pain so well without telling me a word about it . You’ve taught me how to be as confident as I am , you’ve taught me how to keep myself together , you’ve taught me that it’s okay to be messy and confused as long as I know I am myself , you taught me how to create my own  principles , you taught me how to be independent , but I thought independence was just standing up on my own feet , I didn’t know it would come with so many responsibilities .

More than anything ma , you are the sculptor of this statue and I promise it will make you proud .

SRILAKSHMI KANAKALA (1975-2020) You are Beautiful, Strong and the absolute BEST MA.

106 Comments

    1. Meer

      Beta… You made me cry with your love towards your Amma… No words dear… I am speechless
      …I pray God to bless you with more love and courage to face this loss and support your dad and sister… God has a reason for everything he does. So please believe in God… Now Amma is in good hands of God and very happy. I know the pain you are all passing through… But All is well…. . Om Shanthi 🙏🙏🙏

      Liked by 1 person

    1. Swetha

      Hi prerana.. i can feel ur pain because i too lost my mother soo early.. (1965-2014).. i always thinking why God has took this decision in our lives.. but ok i know she is in heaven But No More pain…
      Prerana be strong.. her blessings and love will always be with u..

      Liked by 1 person

  1. Ujwala

    Definitely not.Crying is the ultimate way of showing pure love on another person. Remember one thing my little darling if u cry continuously for ur loved ones then ur love is going to melt in that tears.U r brave and strong girl.I salute srilakshmi gaaru for moulding u as perfect mature girl .Ur mom blessings are always with u and yes absolutely she is observing the things which u r doing .Take care of Ur sister and dad too.God bless u my champ.

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Archana

      Wish you all strength to you and your family Prerana and Raga your Mother is with you. I know it was difficult for you to leave us mid way but I am glad you made the right choice because we could not see you suffering . These lines are heart touching.May God bless you both with bright future ahead.

      Liked by 1 person

  2. Sudhakar Komakula

    True Prerana. She is watching you and right inside you! You can always feel her. You have a strong mind and delicate heart. Protect and make your Mom and family proud! I know you will!
    Bless you.

    Liked by 1 person

  3. Madhuri

    Hi ,
    Wonderful words to express love for ur ma. Strong mother and strong daughter ,you guys build strong society. Loved every bit of this , connected to me so emotional , I wanted you to overcome the situation and welcome your beautiful life ahead.

    Liked by 1 person

  4. Priya

    So so sorry for your loss and I had tears rolling my eyes reading through this letter. Nobody can ever and never replace that place, please be strong and make her proud in all ways! Strength and wishes to your family in this tough times. 🙏🏼

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Pooja

      Hlo prerana its an absolute letter u were returned ialso lost my mother in the childhood at the age of 5yrs after reading ur letter iam remembering my mother be strong and stay strong now ur the mother to ur sister take care of her may God bless u

      Like

    1. geetha1611

      God bless you n raaga nanna…your mom told many times that you r soon active and intelligent…my heart melts by reading this letter it shows your maturity…your mom will be with you always in your smiless…be strong nanna and you have to cheer up your little sister…lots of love to you

      Liked by 1 person

    1. Mounika N

      Be strong and be blessed prerana ur mom will be with u forever and I know how much u have that pain , ur mom will see u from another world that’s y u have to be strong. Good luck for your bright future take care.

      Liked by 1 person

  5. Grandha

    Hi pari and raaga. pari i’m so glad that u expressed all ur feallings and u bearing the pain how it fells now in this situation its so glad that u guys r not felling lonely,but its ok she will be watching u guys and will bless u all the time and will always support u.

    Liked by 1 person

  6. Swapna Palabandla

    Prerana,it’s very hard but the words which u spoke about ur mom is true,and this will be inspirational,I thank to God,u understood alot beyond ur age…she will alive in all our hearts babyy…

    Liked by 1 person

  7. Sunitha

    Be Strong talli.. It is very tough to digest. Definitely you will reach your goals, mom is always with you. నీ లెటర్ చదువుతూవుంటే కన్నీళ్లు ఆపుకోలేకపోయాను

    Liked by 1 person

    1. udayshiva

      Miss u madam rajeevi sir suma madam pls thalli leni lotu thirchalli suma akka meru sir entha mandhi ni navisthu vuntaru kani ha devudu me intla ela jaragadam chala badha karam meru epudu bagundali ani ha god ni good friday roju prayer chestuna 🙏

      Liked by 1 person

  8. Archana

    Wish you all strength to you and your family Prerana and Raga your Mother is with you. I know it was difficult for you to leave us mid way but I am glad you made the right choice because we could not see you suffering . These lines are heart touching.May God bless you both with bright future ahead.

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Kabila Madasamy

      I’m seeing myself on this words dear. Like you I too missed my Amma bcoz of Cancer disease. All the words what you had said was really true dear. Now our Amma’s will be in their world watching us & protecting us safely. What I promised to my Amma was you may not be with us now, but one particular day i too will come & meet you. On that day, I will tell you what are all the things you missed to watch on behalf of me & how I suffered without you & tell her how hard my days without you. Baby surely I tell you we are all blessed child’s of God. At very young age we are molded by God. Just like me, you to need to survive in this world without our loved one. Surely you seek your Amma blessings dear.

      Liked by 1 person

  9. vivek narasimham

    dear Prarana.. what a great parenting by sister srilakshmi… only a blessed child can be so matured dear Prarana you made our heart wet by your very bold letter of rememberance.s. the thought of feeling motjer with you is a great one, which is not possible by most including me. i too lost my mother but did not the courage you have.. dear prerana you are surely blessed to have such a great mother where her parenting is reflected on you in a great way. your mother will be there with you every second in all your determinations and achievements… lovingly… yours mama…. vivek

    Liked by 1 person

  10. Likhith Nalla

    Hey Pari, So glad to see you do so well…
    Keep up the good work and stay strong. Mom’s always gonna be with you no matter what!! This blog post tells us everything about you and how strong you are.
    Proud of you and always here to help!

    Liked by 1 person

  11. Reva

    Heyy!
    This is the most beautiful thing I’ve read today ra, your a really strong girl ❤️
    Reading this I had tears in my eyes
    She’ll always be with you ra.
    Stay strong 💪🏻

    Liked by 1 person

  12. PraveenaMaakam

    I was literally connected to this message sooo much bursting out into tears
    4 years back at the same age of Lakshmi garu my mother had left me alone to Fight with this world
    Be strong prerana
    Nothing can stop us

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Kabila Madasamy

      I’m seeing myself on this words dear. Like you I too missed my Amma bcoz of Cancer disease. All the words what you had said was really true dear. Now our Amma’s will be in their world watching us & protecting us safely. What I promised to my Amma was you may not be with us now, but one particular day i too will come & meet you. On that day, I will tell you what are all the things you missed to watch on behalf of me & how I suffered without you & tell her how hard my days without you. Baby surely I tell you we are all blessed child’s of God. At very young age we are molded by God. Just like me, you to need to survive in this world without our loved one. Surely you seek your Amma blessings dear.

      Like

  13. uday chaitanyam

    V v v c v vv bDont worry prerna Aunt is Always With You 🖤🖤 She always in Your Soul Be Strong .. she will observe You from Heaven for sure . TAKE care…. as U dont know me but I know you ..

    Liked by 1 person

  14. uday chaitanyam

    Dont worry prerna Aunt is Always With You 🖤🖤 She always in Your Soul Be Strong .. she will observe You from Heaven for sure . TAKE care…. as U dont know me but I know you ..

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Meenakshi

      It was so shocking and I know the love you have towards your Amma… No words dear… I am speechless
      God bless you with strength love and courage to face this loss and be strength to Raaga and take care of yourself and little one… . I know the pain you all are passing through… You and Raaga will be in my prayers…. .
      Om Shanthi 🙏🙏🙏

      Liked by 1 person

  15. Kalpana

    Hi Pari paapa, you’re very strong baby naana like your mother (papai). But I know how much sensitive she was and i know you also dear. She taught you and Raga so many things in early age. We used to talk and we were very happy. This is the reason papai you taught very early anipisthundhi. I don’t know but I’m still not accepting it, I can’t understand how you are handling all this. I’m proud of you dear please take care off daddy Raga and your self.

    Liked by 1 person

  16. Sivani

    No one can replace a mom, but God can comfort a grieving heart. He knows what you need during this time much better than anyone else…
    Wherever a beautiful soul has been there is a trail of beautiful memories…
    Pari nd Raaga we are with you.. Be strong….
    Pari.. love you loads nd proud of you ma..

    Liked by 1 person

  17. Nikhita

    I may not know you well prerana, but I can still say you really wrote an amazing letter. You described all your emotions in such a way everyone who reads this gets to tears, including me. You are very strong. Always be equally strong. You are an inspiration for many people.

    Liked by 1 person

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s